Thursday, September 07, 2006
Ever since I was young, I played little games with myself. They can even be called challenges, I guess. I used to think, okay, if I can hold my breath for 30 seconds then maybe Mommy'll allow me to watch cartoons later. If I can draw a perfect star X will text me later. Or the most recent, if I can resist the temptations of the computer this weekend, I'll get an A1 for my Chinese O Levels. Stupid games like these. But sometimes, they really do give you that little bit of confidence and trust you need to get on to the next day. I don't know if I'm making sense. But if you get what I mean, yeah... Point is, there's no point. Sorry, another of my senseless ramblings.
Fine, I'm the vindictive bitch and you're the helpless victim. You're making me dread the next day so much and I don't know why I'm letting you get to me like this. But it won't be for long. 你给我一种很强很强的压迫感。
;Only you can stop the rain tonight
10:23 PM
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