Monday, February 26, 2007
I spoke to X on the phone last night, but it was, awkward. Haha, its so sad how far two people, who were once so close, can drift apart. The old jokes we shared and laughed at countless of times have somehow lost their meaning and don't seem so funny anymore. (I remember dissing all your lousy ex-boyfriends and you trying to diss my boyfriend back but, haha, he was, it didn't work.) We used to have endless things to say to each other, but now, we exhaust all the conversation topics and try to skirt all the sensitive issues. They're like potholes, really. We'd be talking happily until we realise that the conversation's headed in the wrong direction, then we'd stop abruptly, leaving the silence to speak the unspoken. Haha, I remember, we had this 'game' when we would try to "out-shout" each other 'cause we were both fighting to talk to tell each other about our lives. But it's different now, there are no shouting games, no endless stream of words. It's just, awkward laughter and uncomfortable silence. We cannot change the past, but I do see that you're beginning to understand my reasons, and I'm glad that we're at least talking. I miss you. I want my sister back. I'm sorry. I love you.
I just needed to let out steam and tell someone the things I would have trouble saying to her face (:
Love, Claud.
PS, Ken, you're the chickenhead lah, stop making me grin at my phone!(:
;Only you can stop the rain tonight
9:56 AM
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